things.

Recently I realised how lucky i am; to be blessed with the best people who i know i can count on to get me through tough times. I haven't been that available to them as a friend before, but they were always there. Thank you vic, gwen, syl, fan, bing, charis and my dearest kianru. I hope you all know that i'm really thankful for your presence in my life.

I've been.. keeping myself busy. but not busy enough. which is why i got myself a job. its not even design related but i dont care, i just need a job.

I'm constantly bloated. like i dont even feel like eating anything but i got to eat so that my weight won't fall below 40 and i wont freak my parents out.

I think about you, mostly. about what you're doing and if you're alright. but i try not to think about that too much. cause.. whats the point? right? I thought about writing you something. like one last something. but i decided not to cause .. again, whats the point?

I want to get myself a dog. and i will. I will get a dog if i am not going to London. and my dog will be my best friend. it will be a happy dog. cause i will shower it with love. we will be happy.

I still really hate my hair. :(

I am glad my photos from my film cam turned out so .. unexpected and satisfying to look at.

work is going to be bearable tmr. and i will be busy and i will sit by the water at night and eat a pomelo and play with sparkles and forget everything for awhile.

i know i've been blogging alot lately. and its all sad stuff. but i need to write to feel better.

almost 1 week.