Eat Pray Love

i'm in love with yoga.
and libing is rushing me to get out of my house now. so thats it to this post-.-
bad time to write.

------------follow up---------------


i feel like crying now. cause i dont understand how people can be so... horrid to the people who used to love them so dearly. why why why? don't you feel a thing? why can't everyone just be nice to each other. be sincere, be honest, be good. as i type this, i'm reminded of something row said. Row is like the devil in my head, telling me that things will never be as perfect as i imagined them to be. like.. this world is shit. this world is full of shit people who gives you shit and if you're nice to these shit people, they'll be like " wow, she loves shit. let me give her more shit." so.. does that mean everyone has to stop being nice to these shit people? supposedly yes. cause thn they will know that they can't keep feeding you with their shit. but that will make you one of the shit people and that is why we're all more or less shit people right now. that made sense right? its upsetting me alot. cause i feel like nobody is good anymore. not even me. cause i secretly want these shit people to get a taste of their own shit. and now its not even a secret anymore.

let me just.. do yoga, go pray at temples, walk dogs, swim, do things that i like to do and try not to expect anything from any human being. but i know thats not going to happen. cause i am jobless and being happy isn't that easy.

anyway, its been.. approximately 1 month and 1 week? and i'd just like to quote taylor:
"remembering him comes in flashbacks and echoes, tell myself its time now gotta let go."
but the next line doesn't apply. cause.. i'm wide awake. -katy perry.

. i'm gonna cut papers.