2011

 2011 was not that bad for me since i had a good share of happiness this year. i think the last few months saved my entire year though. lucky me.

this year, I...

moved to a new blog.
got my first pair of doc marts.
got my driver's license.
got fired during my internship ( one hell of an experience )
went to China for 7 weeks.
dyed my hair red thn brown and purple thn black thn ash brown.
took part in a flea for the first time.
had a birthday that felt like a birthday.
went to All Time Low's concert ( first time watching a concert in the rain )
rode on a four man bike.
developed a deep love for crystals.
made new friends.
ice skate for the first time.
mustered the courage to move back into my own room to sleep alone.
went to JB with fanny ( not something my mum would let me do in the past )
walked into a club for the first time ( only lasted for about 5 minutes cause it was early and there was nobody )
tried a new job ( blackberry )
had the best christmas.
spent the most on online shopping ever since i started.
managed to thank my close friends for being friend with such a contradicting and lame-most-of-the-time person like me.
fell sick twice, lost my voice once.
bought a prime lens.
played darts for the first time and sucked at it.
tried a margarita, erdinger, singapore sling, apple cider and martini for the first time.
got a piano black instax.
managed to live with seeing you 2 days per week.
got purple jewel LED lights for my room.
broke my own lousy record of 54 points at bowling with a 71 points.
played wii for the first time.
played kinect for the first time.
went to Marina Bay Sands observatory deck for the first time.
baked some new stuff.
did my own henna for the first time.
stole something from china. ( stupid but another new experience)
ran off without paying for 2 coconuts at Little India. ( impulsive but funny)
had quite a number of heartaches which i managed to pull through.
see the change in you and am really glad.
love you more.
still need to be better.
will make sure i try harder the next year.

2012 better be kind.
I want to graduate, learn to play the guitar, learn to speak another language, dress more feminine, earn some money, go for a grad trip to another country, make more new friends, get into a university, make things work for us, have a balance in life, be happy, do better, have more new experiences, love more hate less. ( for now. )

its new yr's eve. brace yourself for a new year. (:
goodnight!

Almost the end. again.

sent out the christmas cards i've been working on for a few days but quite disappointed because they did not reach my friends before christmas. but i still hope whoever receives it would like it. its not the best but i really did put in effort. 

This christmas was really good for me because of the company i hung out with. I made new friends, caught up with the old friends and tried new things. thank you thank you thank you to you guys for making this christmas such a good one for me. 

To Randy, To Lena, To Syl, To Gwen, To Vic, To Tiffany, To Fanny, To 八三, To friends around me, To year 2011 even though it really sucked at times for me, To the possibility of something more wonderful that awaits us in the year to come. 

:(

The more angry I am, the more heartbroken get after the angst is gone. tonight just really sucked for me cause I'm reminded of so much. 

Tmr will be better. it will. 

winter wonderland

wip:

TO-DO

1. christmas card illustration
2. deal with overdue photos
3. find a nice dress
4. clean my room
5. work on inds
6. start planning for my portfolio seriously. 
7. meet up with friends.
8. dempsey hill

talk is cheap.

sometimes, just sometimes, i miss the old me.
I've been thinking alot more than i used to and its not always a good thing.
simple is good. complications are not.

gone are the days where we all have lesser to worry about.
I guess we all have to start enjoying today because tomorrow, today will be gone and before we know it, many todays would be gone too. time is a scary thing. i need to make practical plans and start making sure things get done.

& i think i talk alot.

Christmas is just round the corner

I'd really like to make christmas cards to thank everyone who have made this year work for me. 

but looking at the amount of work i have to do for my final year project, i dont know if it is even possible.

Sigh. okay anyway, I really hate my daily life routine right now. its just sleep work eat bathe work eat work sleep eat work eat work bathe work .............. ya. like that. 

got to get back to the boring cycle now bye. 

来来INDS BRING YOUR GAME ON.

good morning. today i will finish the guestcard, the shirt, the souvenir and the facebook page.
NEXT WEEK SETTLE THE GOD DAMNED MAP. i am going to draw a map. in one week.
nope, not kidding. and this classical music playing now makes me want to rip my hair apart. kbye. 开工！

5 more days.

fast forward time.
sigh. i really hate this inds thingy.
have zero positivity about the outcome.
even more so when my illustrator keeps crashing when i have yet to save my file.

i just want to eat frosties, online shop, sleep, draw random things WITH NO CONCEPTS, visit new places, do new things, GRADUATE ( i know i'll miss poly life ltr but right now i just really want to graduate), listen to good music, spend time with my friends, spend time with you, spend time with family, watch tv, GET DONE WITH INDS, buy a macbook pro, drive with confidence, revamp my room which is not conducive for work right now. and sleep. and sleep and sleep.

#indsruiningmylife.

No Time

No time for perfect.
No time for good.
No time for alright.
My work just looks like shit srsly.

Ten

I watched Arthur last night. for the second time.
Had pizza with my brother for dinner.
Stayed home today cause i woke up late and missed class.
INDS progress probably like only 20%.
Spent most of the time watching tv, playing zombie hunting and eating.
or blogshopping and bloghopping.
today officially marks 10 days to submission.
what am i doing?

Good times.

really love you.

Contradicthings

So.. i was just thinking..
if we should all learn to be contented with what we are and what we have right now. That way we'll be happier. right?
or should we all be hungry for more. That way, we could possibly achieve more. right?
actually, i dont know.

yum

5 days ain't that long right?

but it sure felt long.

Simple is good. I like Simple.

Life is treating me good.

Went to sentosa with Lena and Syl today. 

We were lucky enough to catch the sun for a while before it started to rain.

Met Randy after that. We had a heartwarming dinner. 

( sharing night market food while it was raining and a bowl of nice warm handmade noodle.)

& thn i headed back to meet Lena and Syl at Chomp Chomp. 

Sounds really simple but thats kinda like one of the better Sundays i've had. 

Meanwhile, Dj is back in Korea alrdy. if he wasn't lying to me again..

and i just sent Naho an Email. heh, i'd like to share them with all of you. 

(explains recent blog entries filled with updates about them. )

I dare say, 

THE BEST PART OF MY INDS WAS GETTING TO KNOW THIS BUNCH OF AWESOME FRIENDS. 

but i've not been doing alot for INDS so i guess its time i wrap up my tourist mood and start getting something done. 

on another note, I'd like you to be happy with what i'm happy with. (:

I've been good.

This week is really pretty awesome.

I took up an offer to ride in a stranger's car cause I was lost at Clementi.
Made new friends.
Did silly things.
Went to MBS observatory deck.
Spent time with you.
Had some good food.
Spent some money on each other.

Suddenly, life feels great.
till i think about INDS. HA. goodluck xinyi. really.

11/11/11

It amazes me. How we could hit off within a few hours over breakfast in the morning.
Really glad that I met these people; Dongjin from Korea, Naho from Japan, Lena from Germany and Aart from Holland. They were so nice I decided to bring them around Singapore. We ended up @Marina Bay Sands. My first time on the observatory was with Naho who was really cute and that irritatingly silly Dongjin. We walked a pretty long distance, poked fun at each other, had Singapore food, took like a zillion photos; it was awesome & I totally did not expect this much coming from a one night stay at the backpacker's hostel. Will remember these guys and hopefully i'll get to visit them at their country. My 11/11/11 was so fulfilling I feel like I couldn't ask for more. Oh, maybe one thing that would make things even better was your presence. I would like you to meet them. cause they made me really happy. the kind of happy i dont think i felt before, and i would like you to feel that way too.

It was also nice to spend time with Syl, get to know abit more about each other's life, kinda stole 2 fresh coconuts and ran away from that indian stall together because we didnt want to pay for bad service. Impulsive but we giggled about it after that.  It reminds me of the good old days we had on the running tracks. It was nice. I cant even find a word enough to describe this niceness that i am feeling now.

Hopefully Dj and Aart would enjoy the rest of their trip, for Naho, I hope she'll have a safe flight back to Japan and for Lena, I hope she'll like the rest of her stay here. On top of all that, I hope they'll remember us.

Oh man. gonna miss them all so much.

the rain got me thinking.

I know things doesn't have to turn out this way.
and i'll be so mad at myself if i were to let my ego and my stubbornness get me deeper in this roller coaster of emotions. it wasn't all my fault. but it was still my fault. i hope this helps. to the both of you.

yeah. this is the time i realize that I'm such a bad person.

its still raining. i'll go think if there is any other thing i should apologize for.

Change.

New haircut. New hair colour. ha. I feel like a 16 yr old again. 

whats up for the whole of this week? stressing over INDS. 

FYI, INDS is my Final Year Project module. 

I don't like you. but still, rest in peace.

The praying mantis was found dead the next day after it was spotted. dead. at the alter. 

like what bro said, it might be praying before it fell into the pool of oil.
oh well..

Amethyst

New obsession// Crystals. 

I love how every single piece of them has a special cut and unique colour.

so inspiring. 

@a crystal shop with my parents last week:

haha, placing the pictures this large cause I think its so pretty.

Never told you.

this week really sucks for me. really.
I've been working my body off trying to get my fyp proposal done and it just feels like forever trying to get it completed. This time consuming torture. I'm glad i'm done. Print and submit tmr thn i'm gonna start on the next stage. NO MORE LAST MINUTE WORKS OKAY?

you haven't heard the rest

Where did that girl go?

I thought you'd know.

2AM with INDS....

and i'm getting distracted by youtube. 

Here, Aberdeen by Cage the Elephant with their cute music video:

kay, back to INDS siaodingdongbonghonglonglonglonglonglongkongfonggggggggggggggggg.

what was that for? for the long long bongmongsongkongdongnong night. 

set the music free.

Thank you Never Shout Never, for such great music.

emotional wreck.

Just in the previous entry i was saying that I'm having a positive feeling, so positive I want to cry.

but now, I feel like shit. like every single thing upsets me and I feel so shitty I want to cry. 

Hi, my name is contradict. 

have you ever felt this way?

Like.. you suddenly feel like you know what you want in life and how you are going to achieve whatever you want to achieve and you have this crazy surge of emotional mix inside of you all at one go, you feel like crying it all out, not because you're upset but because you just feel like it. That, is exactly how i feel now. Maybe this feeling will go away. Maybe it won't. But its an interesting feeling.

Bring it on.

Day 1 back in school was really intense.

But this is it. The last big thing. 

walking on sunshine

I want everyday spent together to be like today. like.. being able to be really happy. (:

your secrets are safe with me.

rainy wednesday// chicken curry @Killiney's kopitiam.

@ballysmoon

@Esmirada where they have the tradition of smashing their plates as a form of celebration after the meal. It was really interesting to watch. & I actually got to smash a few plates.

Thursday// Duck pizza, Margarita & Martini @Timbre with bel.

ok i've got alot of overdue pics. & school is starting. & i have a bad feeling about INDS.
gg

give me therapy

whats playing recently:

// therapy

// dear maria count me in

// time bomb

k nvm. just go check out all time low. (:

The rain was worth it.

last night was the awesome-est shit that happened this school break. 

I went for the All Time Low concert  @wavehouse and The Dirt Radicals were there for the opening act. It was raining but who cares when the bands were rocking socks. It was really good. 

but i'm still mad at myself. cause i went out with my camera without checking the battery. 

and my phone had to be a bitch and went on low batt too. so all i managed was one blur shot of the banner in the rain which really sucked. Kylie brought her cam but her batteries died too. thank god guoliang came after that and he bought batteries for her camera. ok. gonna eat my prata now. bye.

yumyumyum

@holland v. dailyscoop with grace, irene and sk. 

this holiday is getting really mundane. sigh. who wanna play mahjong with me?

boomerang

all of this, sitting on a boomerang.

and all of this coming back to hit me again and again.

here comes new.

today i had my first attempt at half dutch braid that ends with a side bun.

yes, srs case of cock eye here. now bye.

Sweet tooth.

lately i've been busy.
idk with what but i just have no time to update this space. 

but i have pics.

baking smores on my own @home:

made chocolate crinkles the next day:

@loysel's toy cafe with the track and field mates. pretty nice environment to chill.

@cold stone creamery, getting ice cream to eat at the roof garden of orchard central.

sylvia bought for us alcoholic chocolates from... london(?)

my helper @ flb7

and i bought this pez thingy. used to buy alot of this when i was younger. love the cute candy dispenser.

I watched Soul Surfer and Arthur recently. thumbs up. go watch kay you guys. i think both movies are nice. caught abduction during the weekend but i think it wasn't as good as expected. the girl was really pretty though. its really late now but i'm gonna watch an online movie. bye! 

i've been here and there.

@Jack's place with my family in celebration of dad and bro's birthday.

@east coast park// first time riding the four man bike. It was a really slow ride. 

@the daily scoop with belinda// I tried kookie monster. thumbs up!

@ Nihon Mura for jap food with people I love.

@belinda's place to bake some Nomilicious cupcakes

Have been working my ass off for the past 2 weekends and now, i'm back to being unemployed. 

I do have a stall with kianru for the upcoming flb7 this saturday, 24th sep at club soul from 11 till 8. hopefully this would bring in some money for me. Anway...

gonna bake some smores and cookies this week using my crazy oven. *fingers crossed*