//miss you really really bad.

plans for this vacation: get a job, do some self initiated work, meet people, revamp my room, get so busy i have no time to be negative about my life.

uninspired

Its 2.13am as i start composing this entry. and i was still thinking.. "i'm gonna countdown to friday."

I'm finally done with submissions for this semester and its such a relief, really. 

so anyway, i was just thinking about how bad all my works are. i'm not proud of them. 

but i'm feeling so uninspired and looking at beautiful things just makes me feel a little bad about myself.

i'm gonna turn in after finishing this bag of chips. goodnight y'all.

things i'd really like to have

her hair, love the gradient,

this super cute top,

a fishtail skirt as pretty as this,

i want to drive in this, 

i want to keep a golden retriever.

for my room: white walls, white study table, white bedsheet, white curtains. White room. 

but i'm so fickleminded i might be wanting to paint my room rainbow and glitter next month.

I need a macbook pro before this macbook dies.

Sigh, why is nothing ever enough. 

i need to build my portfolio which currently consists of only shit works.

but i refuse to accept the fact that i am only capable of producing shit works. hahaha. 

kay anyway, i passed my driving test today. good start.

But i'm hoping that the rest of the week would be smooth sailing too.  

need to rehearse for my presentation tmr. not confident but i'll keep my fingers crossed.

Hell Week.

Tmr marks the start of hell week for me.
Retaking driving test, major presentation for EDS, Submission of journal on friday.
I am very sure binding of my journal would get me killed.
Good thing this week was good. and i'm feeling like things are starting to fall in place.

soda.

I'd describe myself as a can of shaken up soda now.

The happiness all ready to explode once submissions is over. 

cry baby.

I'm so good at crying got myself a fever from crying. but guess what? I feel so much better after letting it all out. 

Need a break to sort out my thoughts. think you need one too. to reflect. and stop asking me what's wrong when the answer is kinda apparent.

Lost Count

Joji's wise words. Indeed.

sigh. need to stop getting so affected by everyone and everything. can do this. 

Happy Birthday Singapore

things

@strictly pancakes

Sunday skies

hello mr cherry tomato.

@starbucks some time ago.

#EDScan, LAST FRIGGING LAP. GO!

k back to work. 

btw, now reading Guardian by Nicholas Sparks.

people.

we used to all be really lame. and stupid.
but we also used to be alot happier. no?
well at least i think its true in my case.
after i read my oldest blog that i remember writing.

i must be happy. i must be happy.

on a side note, i went for the crowbar seminar at NYP yesterday and i really love what Joji, Esther and Xander from Ogilvy shared.

Try.

you'll fail. and you'll continue to fail.
but you can try. and continue trying.

Watermelon; RedJuicyHappiness

with great help from Gwen@candystickmens with the make up and Weili@Wlileow who was my lifesaver and my last minute model, not forgetting Elizabeth@elezabeef for the skirt. Thanks guys!

Meanwhile, i have alot to do. No time to fight. No time to cry. No time to waste time.

Reading Have a little Faith by Mitch Albom now. and I just want to share this part of the book:

"Mom, guess what?" she squealed, waving the drawing.

Her mother never looked up.

"What?" she said, tending to the pots.

"Guess what?" the child repeated, waving the drawing.

" What?" the mother said, tending to the plates.

"Mom, you're not listening."

"Sweetie, yes i am."

"You're not listening with your eyes."

That, is what you do to me.

Every Day's Shit (EDS)