24 hours is not enough

i have so many things i need to do/ want to do.

Like for tmr, i have to paint my nails, make a trip to the bank, meet sk to get loop stuff, pass bro loop stuff, go sephora, go topshop, go daiso, go grandma's house. draw for christmas photo booth props, download songs, download fonts, make sure all my pay is in, call singtel.

today i drove without the P plate for the first time and i think i did well. dad refused to admit that i am damn good with my parking now but its okay. i hope he trusts me with the car soon, thn i can drive to nice places with my friends.

ok i need slp now.

people help the people

I just sent 2 quotations for 2 different jobs. and i am feeling quite pissed cause obviously either someone is undercharging all these people OR these people think designers feed on air and the grass by the roadside. Don't do this to your design market okay fellow designers. This country already only has this little regards for design and art scene people, (even though they keep saying that they wanna promote art and design blah blah blah blah blah) if you are going to continue charging peanuts for your works, we're all gonna get peanut pay. Sigh.

I went to BooksActually today and i bought 2 items. I knew i had to get something from that shop after watching their video my friends shared on facebook and i teared. I felt silly for tearing over that video but I knew why i had tears; i feel like i know how they feel even though they definitely would have been through more and slogged more. Its just.. Singaporeans are really not that interested. Like when i was at MAAD tending Loop's booth, I realised how foreigners are much more willing to pay for our works. Its kinda sad. :/ and i'm glad to see people like that being so passionate. I love what i do. but i think if it doesnt make me enough money, i may consider something else. You're going to say " that means you don't love what you do enough. " and i'd like to say.. i do. i really do love design and i love illustrating and crafts but, i think i need to be practical.

its 3am. and i'm thinking about the things on my to-do list. supposedly the world should end today cause its the 21st of december but no. and i wonder if someone actually really thinks the world will end and went to spend his/her entire fortune on things that they might not need. that person would have something to worry about tmr.

I should sleep now. Hope the cookies and cakes turns out good tmr. and i also hope that the weather is nice enough for a good swim. :)

hi.

today i made some new friends, and had a great dinner followed by ice cream. oh, pay is in! and today i realize i'm so much happier.

i stopped counting.

December. 

my cousin's 19th birthday. love you girl. forever will. (:

Jellyfish fields with charis, ray and eugene. 

yummiest yum ever. like ever. 

cant wait for christmas parties and baking session with my best friend. 

whirl

please dont ask me what i want.
i really have no idea right now.

"life; a series of moments. let it go."

i just watched the best movie ever. i mean like.. i've never cried this much over a movie. this one is beautiful and i just.. have to make it my favourite movie. now is good. :')

i feel like i'm losing someone/something everyday and it really is upsetting.
and i spend everynight trying to download the frigging softwares that got erased from my macbook.
i go to work. i watch tv. i ...feel like i'm a boring person.

maybes.

i think that maybe its just this year. maybe next year will be better.
and that maybe its nobody's fault cause we all have different views and we all pursue different things in life. also, maybe i'm just thinking too much and maybe tmr i will wake up and realize what i really want. maybe everything will eventually work out. or maybe not.

Dear December,

i really really really am excited for christmas. 

and i really am excited for 2013. 

and i really hope i make the right decisions. 

and that my good friends will always be my good friends. 

(: 

loop is participating in maad tmr. i'm quite excited too. ok its 3am. i'm gonna have some oreos and thn i'm gonna sleep.