some time ago...

Today i watched moonrise kingdom which is a really cute young love story. and i also watched seeking a friend for the end of the world. This one got me thinking alot. i need to make a list of things to pack and things to do before the world ends. right now, these are all that is on my list:

1. Skinny dipping

2. Go to a place that snows and make snow angels

3. Road trip in a caravan

4. Make a end-of-world playlist with all my favourite songs

omg............ thinking about it makes me v nervous. like.. what if i dont have enough time to complete all my to-dos. or what if i dont even know when its ending so i dont even get to complete any of the above. ahhhh. 

and erm, i feel like cutting my hair a little bit shorter. just a little bit. 

Lactose

i almost thought i was gonna die last night. i guess its the amount of ice CREAM i took yesterday. diarrhoea and puke session at 4am. like exactly 4am. grossed out by myself and my useless body.

ok going to go play water with my bing bing and fan fan. (:

lack of sleep.

ya. i  havent been getting enough rest lately. woke at 6 am yesterday for yoga and 6 am again today for trekking. we walked and jogged about 11km at macritchie. *pats back* but i went to eat ice cream at salted caramel after that. and i went home to try to catch some sleep but the weather was insanely warm. so i ended up with just my undergarments but it was still really warm. turned out, i forgot to open my window. so after i gave up sleeping, it started to rain. guess the weather just wanna go against me. met the guys for dinner and got to see their botak head. and thn i had ice cream at udders. this is how i spend my days; eating, worrying, exercising.

Work this body.

i remember saying "yoga therapy" in my previous entry. 

but yoga wasn't exactly therapeutic today. cause the hot room was too hot and i felt like my head was gonna explode. bad choice to sit under that heater; i came out of the room looking like a tomato. but ok. i still like yoga. thank you kianru. for being the best a friend can ever be. i'm so blessed.

trekking with the girls tmr. (: i damn healthy lifestyle now. and i've got so many overdue pics to filter and upload. gahhh. especially the batam pics. and i need to catch a movie soon. i haven't caught a single movie in the theatres since...... ya. since then. 

27th

Was clearing my mac's trash.. and i found a kiwi.

 

that is not important. but the kiwi looks good. so, here.. this is the kiwi that i forced myself to eat 2 months ago. not a fan of kiwis. i dont even know why i'm writing about this. so... anyway....

I finally paid my first visit to the animal's shelter today. as much as i'm glad to see the cuties, my heart is slightly heavy to hear about how heartless people can be to these animals. sigh pie.

other than that, i'd just like to see my parents happy. yoga therapy tmr.

Eat Pray Love

i'm in love with yoga.
and libing is rushing me to get out of my house now. so thats it to this post-.-
bad time to write.

------------follow up---------------


i feel like crying now. cause i dont understand how people can be so... horrid to the people who used to love them so dearly. why why why? don't you feel a thing? why can't everyone just be nice to each other. be sincere, be honest, be good. as i type this, i'm reminded of something row said. Row is like the devil in my head, telling me that things will never be as perfect as i imagined them to be. like.. this world is shit. this world is full of shit people who gives you shit and if you're nice to these shit people, they'll be like " wow, she loves shit. let me give her more shit." so.. does that mean everyone has to stop being nice to these shit people? supposedly yes. cause thn they will know that they can't keep feeding you with their shit. but that will make you one of the shit people and that is why we're all more or less shit people right now. that made sense right? its upsetting me alot. cause i feel like nobody is good anymore. not even me. cause i secretly want these shit people to get a taste of their own shit. and now its not even a secret anymore.

let me just.. do yoga, go pray at temples, walk dogs, swim, do things that i like to do and try not to expect anything from any human being. but i know thats not going to happen. cause i am jobless and being happy isn't that easy.

anyway, its been.. approximately 1 month and 1 week? and i'd just like to quote taylor:
"remembering him comes in flashbacks and echoes, tell myself its time now gotta let go."
but the next line doesn't apply. cause.. i'm wide awake. -katy perry.

. i'm gonna cut papers.

"i'm never changing who i am"

paper

today was all about me and papers and blades.
yes i painstakingly sliced these papers. piece by piece. omg. you can make a dictionary out of this stack.

ok its 2.51 now. and its fanny's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY FANNY. thanks for being my friend. hope you'll enjoy tmr with me and bing even though we dont have any interesting plans but i just hope you'll be happy ah. everyday also happy. (: 

oh, and i spilled water all over my portfolio before today's interview. but it wasnt that bad by the time i reached the studio. and and.. today was one of the warmest day i've experienced in sg. maybe cause i was wearing my favourite knitted top. bad choice.

my head feels so light now. i need to slp.  and.. ya. everything will be okay. *self hug*

24th

today, i let myself down. but okay. at least i did well for the past 5 days. URF. and i'm feeling so nervous about tmr's interview. i suck at interviews.

friends

i've been blogging very diligently recently. because i'm feeling a lot. and i feel like i'm learning something everyday. today was good. tiring but good. except for the fact that we ran out of paper to print and that we postponed the binding of books till wed and that my hotcakes that i ordered for breakfast at mc's weren't hot. but i managed to get my portfolio done. i am always doing new portfolios. -.- i have 4 now. and the works inside are all similar. which makes me irritated with myself. oh, this entry was supposed to be for my friends.

A friend once said to me " why would you want to settle down with someone? don't you think your friends are more likely to stay true to you and stay with you for the rest of your life? " and i've been thinking about that. I've quite a number of friends and i feel lucky because i'm not exactly an interesting person to be with. I like to do things like sitting on a patch of grass and listen to music, swim, eat, go to new places and eat, i'm socially awkward and even more so when someone good looking is around. idk why. i guess maybe i just feel like they are too good to want to befriend me. but i've got friends! YAY! some walked away, some drifted, some are still here. and i .. i just wish i have enough time and energy to keep them in my life forever.

my dear friends, if we ever quarrel, lets just say sorry and make up okay. i'm going to the temple tmr and pray that we will always be friends. I REALLY AM.