this:

这个周末

 

basically, its just walking in the woods at night with a headband with light and feeling like an explorer with my daddy to get some yummilicious durians; one of them has got a worm in it. and laksa steamboat with the botakheads and fan and finding out that the human heart is actually not located at the top left hand side of the human body. and shopping with the brother and trying out ridiculous beanies. and meeting a beautiful giant doggy that is big enough to ride. and waiting at clarkequay in the rain for over an hour cause everyone was late. and me taking a photo of myself because my double eyelids were quite nice that day. #ownselfsayone. and loop. and new workplace with new colleagues that i dont think have anything to say to me. oh and trying to make up my mind about my future. 

oh christmas is drawing nearer. i am so excited. (: 

this sinking feeling again.

should never have challenged myself.

today is such a bad bad bad day. so bad that i actually really wanted to just cry my way home. 

i thought i got better at the wedding but now that i'm back at home, i feel like shit again. 

well.. as long as you are happy.

don't even know what i'm thinking. i just dont feel good even though i really want to. 

fuck. jealousy is a ugly bitch.

hate to be writing about how shitty i feel instead of the good things in life but i just need to get it all out. 

kbye. red wine got me in a giant invisible bubble. need to slp.

i... just need to feel something magical.

not supposed to count but y'know, its only been 2 months.
feels like its been damn long.
and there are so many things i would've told you if things didnt turn out this way.

well at least.. i have friends. my only comfort. cause lately even my bro hasn't been speaking to me and for the past one week i've been coming back to an empty house; kinda depressing. and it does sound stupid to say that it makes me feel more alone thn ever but thats how i feel sometimes. when i'm in the shower. but today was good.

my nails are pretty now all thanks to kianru.

 #swifty

weekends

i bought a sewing machine! omgomgomg! excitexzcvbvcx!

what annoys me

is the fact that.. i keep dreaming of you.
4th time this month. Your face wasn't even clear in the dream.
and that sometimes i think ... i forgive you.
but thn i realise you havent even apologised.
i can't forgive nothing right?
it also annoys me that i keep wondering what happened to the photo by your bedside.
and the pictures of me that you kept in your cardholder. and the silly cards i made for you.
its not like i want to think about it. i just.. think about it.

thank you taylor. for always knowing.

Ink. Pen. Paper.

trip to vernon's. syl got inked. and i learnt quite abit from the tattoo artist himself.
need to go back to pen and paper and other mediums. so anyway.. syl got herself her beautiful blue whale. its really nice. (:

and i'm having this massive headache. and my skin is still peeling. wtf is wrong with my body. -.-

lately

been hanging out with fan and friends. 

and listening to alot of new songs.

and shopping. and getting very annoyed with my tongue. 

i thought it was just the tongue but today my gums bled. 

so i guess i'll see the specialist next week. i think i wont be that unlucky. right?

there is work tmr. and syl is getting another ink. i'm tagging along and i feel so excited for her. aha!

oh my asos package is here! lovin the top. but the bag is quite ugly so i'm considering sending it back but its kinda troublesome. Oh... Loop's gonna be taking part in MAAD on 7th Dec. I've been packaging the stuff for the past 1 hour. Time to sleep. but i got to drag this bro to the room first. #mylatenightduties

Youth.

omgomgomg.  this song is.. so good. i think i can listen to it for the whole day.
I'm so glad i clicked on the play button.

uhm ok so i dreamt of him. twice. and its so annoying cause it makes me very nervous to see him. even in my dreams. but its just dreams. so fuck this shit. i'm going to head out and spend money today.

NTS

new jeans, pink lipstick, new blush, new shoe, cotton pads, hair mask, shampoo.

4 more illustrations, namecards.