"its the last time" i say that all the time. but really.. when is the last time?

have been thinking a lot about life and what i really want. 

in summary, i want to be happy. 

in summary, i haven't been very happy. 

and the problem is.. i really don't think i'm asking for too much. 

"be better because you want to be better for her. not because you were left with no other choice." 

on another note, i need to buck up. do more illustrations... save more money.. keep fit.