i wish i can like.. go to bed without worrying what time i have to wake up the next day. and i can wake up and not worry about what i have to do for that day but just do what i want to. and not worry if what i like to do is going to make me any money but just be happy. and not worry about my happiness being affected by others but just do i what i want and be what i want and say what i want. 

right now, i wish i know what i want to do.